you’re ALWAYS smiling and you’re so articulate it’s like you’re a robot who is just really really good at passing for human and it’s kind of terrifying
I’m always smiling because i’m nearly always happy and i’m articulate because when I was in elementary and middle school I sat home and read dictionaries and atlases instead of doing things with friends. How is that creepy? Pathetic maybe
BRANDEIS JUST SENT ME AN EMAIL SAYING DECISIONS WILL BE POSTED TOMORROW INSTEAD OF THE 15TH. I AM NOT PREPARED FOR THIS I WILL BE A WRECK IN SCHOOL TOMORROW I CAN'T DO THIS I'M SOBBING AND SWEATING AND I HATE EVERYTHING.
It is now six days from me finding out my admissions decision from Brandeis University, the school of my dreams, and this is not a good feeling. I feel like Brandeis is the school for me and it’s where I belong and this entire waiting process is making me sick. I’ve been nauseous all day and I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t concentrate on anything and my hands are shaking. What a cruel world we live in that I couldn’t have been told when I went for my interview…or when I sent in my application…or when I visited campus last year…or when I was in the womb.
“There can be no music without ideology. The old composers, whether they knew it or not, were upholding a political theory. Most of them, of course, were bolstering the rule of the upper classes. … We, as revolutionists, have a different conception of music. Lenin himself said that ‘music is a means of unifying broad masses of people.’ Not a leader of masses, perhaps, but certainly an organizing force! … Not that the Soviets are always joyous, or supposed to be. But good music lifts and heartens and lightens people for work and effort. It may be tragic but it must be strong. It is no longer an end in itself, but a vital weapon to the struggle.”—